Nightmares

It's really weird how our brains operate.  Just about all the ladies in my group therapy class have said they've experienced some horrific, graphic nightmares at one point in their lives after they were victimized.  In this instance, my brain somehow managed to combine my abuse with my ultimate betrayal in the form of my father.  

Perhaps my subconscious took two matters which bother me constantly and somehow combined them.  The fact that I was raped repeatedly on a daily basis is of course traumatizing me to this day.  The fact that my father betrayed me by saying it was my fault just as much as it was my rapist's fault (my brother) was the ultimate form of betrayal to me.  I suppose the Bible verse being quoted in the dream came into the picture because my dad says I need to "repent in sack cloth and ashes" because of my "deception" in keeping this secret.  Nightmares are a "normal" part of this recovery process and perhaps a sign that some issues need to be dug up and dealt with...  Now I'm dealing.